well..

I haven't been on alot lately, like next to never.
The past few weeks were really difficult for me,
I had to make some decisions, that weren't easy to take,
My mom has had a heart attack, I was caught in between two guys,
One was great and nice but not the one for me, The other was someone
I really wanted to hate for what he did to me but had something special
about him, that I didn't have with anyone else. Breaking a heart was something I didn't have experience in and it sucked. Deep inside I know
I made the right decision. Because love is something you have to feel and not force. I'm glad I gave him a second chance because I can see in his eyes that he's in it for real this time. I'll just see where it goes and at the moment I think he knows that all I want from him is to love me, and he does. Second chances DO matter after all...
What has been the hardest for me is saying goodbye to my horse,
I never thought this was going to happen, After 6 years of precious memories and all the things we went through, a chapter is ending.
The last few words, the last dot and the book is closed. I'm going to miss him so much, I feel tears welling up as I think about it. But it's the best for him. All I wanted was for him to have a happy life and right now that's more than I can offer him. I hope he'll be happy without me and I hope someday somehow I can be happy without him too...